Thursday, October 15, 2015

Painting Pictures of Egypt




I don't want to leave here,
I don't want to stay,
It feels like pinching to me either way.


The places I long for the most
are the places where I've been.
They are calling after me like a long lost friend.


It's not about losing faith, 
It's not about trust,
It's all about comfortable when you move so much.


The place I was wasn't perfect
But I had found a way to live.
It wasn't milk or honey but then neither is this.


I've been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked.
The future feels so hard and I want to go back.


But the places that used to fit me 
Cannot hold the things I've learned,
and those roads were closed off to me 
While my back was turned.


The past is so tangible, I know it by heart,
Familiar things are never easy to discard.


I was dying for some freedom,
But now I hesitate to go,
I am caught between the promise and the things I know.


I've been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked.
The future feels so hard and I want to go back.


But the places that used to fit me 
Cannot hold the things I've learned,
And those roads were closed off to me
While my back was turned.


If it comes too quick, I may not recognize.
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?


If it comes too quick, I may not appreciate it.
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?

I've been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked.
The future feels so hard and I want to go back.
But the places that used to fit me
cannot hold the things I've learned,
and those roads were closed off to me
While my back was turned.

2 comments:

  1. Somehow it's always so much easier to focus on the bad of where we are and the good of where we are not...but atlas, God always has us in the perfect place at the perfect time because he is a perfect God. "And who knows whether you have have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?" {Esther 14:14b} Love you Stephanie!

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  2. This is so beautiful, Stephanie! Thank you for posting this.

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