Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Introducing: Diary Of

Last week, I took an uncomfortable cliff-dive into the infamous realm of "posting about sickness on social media" and brought out A Journey of Genuine Lordship: How Lyme Disease Changed My Life. If you've been following my blog for a while, you know that I want my posts to make an impact. I want to be real and open with you, that I may be a light and encouragement to those who are struggling. After all, Christ put me here, and if Christ put me here, I might as well honor Him.

Annnd. . .Sometimes honoring Him means jumping into uncomfortable writing moments, like when I get to talk about fighting debilitating diseases.

But after making that infamous dive into the realm of sickness-posts and reality, you guys made a big splash, sending me comments, e-mails, and messages about how much of a blessing the post was to you, and talking about how God spoke to you through it.

I've been thinking about bringing some of this stuff to the table for a long time. Your response last week really helped me to get out of myself and my preferences and think about how many people are out there who are fighting for Light, too (whether through debilitating diseases, struggles at home, friend problems, tribulations, persecution, etc), and could really use some encouragement.


Believe it or not, I actually documented a great deal of things concerning my Lyme Disease struggles in a private blog diary I called my Diary Of. Over the next couple of months, I'm going to be sorting through writing from my Diary Of and picking a handful of stories and articles to share with you here as part of a series type thing. While most of this writing does particularly revolve around Lyme Disease, a lot of it is about my faith, my God, and finding freedom through pain. So, whether you're fighting debilitating illness or trying to love your sister better, it's my prayer this writing will pour out blessings, encouragement, and strength on you.

I'm not one for schedules, so I doubt this series of posts will have a particular order. One week I may throw something from my Diary Of at you, and the next week I'll probably be talking about my current obsession with Adrian Rogers and Little House on the Prairie. However, when I do post something from my Diary Of, I'll be sure to label it so you know where I'm coming from and so you can access it in "series" in the future.

Wow, I'm certainly one for introductions, aren't I?

To start off, I'd like to give you the first thing I posted on my Diary Of. It explains the name and what a lot of this writing is about.

Enjoy, be blessed, and be real.

Tell me what you think, too. Does this idea interest you? Do you like this type of writing? Why or why not?

Original Post Title: Why "Diary Of"?

September 17th, 2013

Diary Of.

It's an incomplete sentence fragment. However, even as an authoress and English teacher, I do still manage to retain a good relationship with fragments. They can be such a tool for emphasis.

Emphasis is not the reason I call this my "Diary Of."

My name is Stephanie. You could call me a lot of things. You could call me a writer, you could call me a friend, an author, a lover of chocolate, a dancer, a skirt-wearer, a student, a harmonizer, a genius, a dreamer.

But I am not here because I'm a writer, a student, or a dreamer. I am here because of one very different reason. I am here because when I'm not a writer, I have a very different identity. To the world, this is who I am:

A sick child.
A victim.

And as a girl called "victim", I'm here to tell you my story from behind the scenes. I'm here to document the journey of a sick girl. I'm here to offer the writings of a young lady who's been torn apart. But please understand that in my eyes:

I am not a sick child.
I am not a victim.

I don't identify myself as a girl with a story. The story is God's.
I don't identify myself as someone who's sick. Because by His stripes, I am healed.
I don't identify myself as torn. The Lord has promised to sew me back together.

This is how the "Diary Of" was born.

I am here to talk to you about a story. But this is not The Diary Of a Girl with a Story.
I am here to talk to you about sickness. But this is not The Diary Of a Sick Child.
I am here to talk to you about being torn apart. But this is not The Diary Of a Torn Girl.

Each identity above is relevant. Each title could have worked.

But God has a better identity waiting for me. This is my Diary Of, because I am leaving it up to Him to use my life to complete the sentence. I'm leaving it up to Him to finish this title with something much more wonderful, more beautiful, and more fulfilling than a sick child or a torn girl. I'm leaving it up to Jesus to complete this sentence with a piece of Himself that will outshine any kind of passing earthly identity that anyone could strap to me.

So welcome, friend, to my Diary Of.


  1. Oh wow. I'm really interested to see what you decide to share with us over the following weeks. :) I do think it's really amazing and brave that you're willing to share your thoughts and your story. I look forward to more.

    1. I'm really interested to see what I share too, Heroine, because I totally haven't decided yet. :) hehe. Thanks for the encouragement!

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